WTF

I Would like to start off by saying this isn't the first time and I'm sure it wont be the last time and I'm going fucking crazy! I have already expressed to my boyfriend that I'm feeling a little like i come second in his life. Iv told him why in every way i feel that way. I'm not in any way being a stupid girl and expecting him to figure it out. Iv told him time and time again. One of the things that drives me crazy is that he is always on his computer. now i have seen a little bit of progress but this is the kicker! This is what feel like a bullet sometimes. He will come home from work and before kissing me pickup his laptop! This morning he decided to wake up... and really i don't even know if his eyes were fully open yet but he picked up his laptop instead of good morning baby and giving me a kiss. The thing is is i don't think it would have been so bad if he would have at least turned over and kissed me first. I have no idea how to fix this issue. I feel like i could talk to him till I'm blue in the face but never get threw to him about this. And I'm tired of nagging about it. But I want to feel first. I normally don't feel this way but in this situation i wish i knew a way to put him in my shoes so he could feel how i feel AND THEN......juuuuust maybe he would understand.
He doesnt feel he does this...He doesn't feel like it is a problem. I think he feel like Im just fighting. Im just complaining. I dont know how to come across to him to show him that it hurts me and that I dont want to fight about it any more, but yet I dont want to let it go untill the problem is fixed. I give him the respect he diserves when he tells me I do something that bothers him... I just want the same in return. PLEEEEASE HELP! GIVE ME YOUR ADVICE!

Wish I was here!

Well here I go... I love me... I love me not.... that's how it goes. I never know until its already too late. I'm sure we all feel this way. I know that I'm not the only girl in the world that thinks her thighs are to fat, her boobs are too small and cant ever decide what hair color really does have more fun. Well trust me these are not my hardest challenges in life. There is much much more hiding behind this smile. So bare with me. Hope you enjoy the blogs, and I would looove your comments and advice if you would like to give it. Welcome to my world. Hope you brought a helmet!